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Are you afraid to change?

July 2nd, 2009 at 05:58 pm

I was!

As I read somewhere "I was driving my car as if my anxiety was keeping the car together"
I was driving my car and my life that way. I thought my anxiety and my emotions were me.
How could I ever let go if them!??

- I was afraid that letting go of my emotions would make my life dull, no passion, and no magic.
- I was afraid that if I didn't let my emotions drive my life, I would become a cold person that didn't care for anything or anybody as long as I didn't get hurt.
- I was afraid that if I stopped letting my emotions boss my life around I would stop being me.

I was wrong in all accounts!

Since I freed myself from the negative side of my emotions, life is more real, vibrant and full of magic than ever! It is like my anxiety and emotions were nothing but a lot of noise that didn't let me see life.

I learned to validate my emotions and use them on a healthy way. And I didn't become a cold person in the process; I am actually a more caring person, more connected to others and better able to help because I am free.

My emotions are not me; actually my emotions were overshadowing me. Once I gave emotions its right place, when I stopped anxiety from ruling my life, only then the real me blossomed.

Not only were my fears unfounded, my emotions where actually causing the very things I was afraid of:

Anxiety and the painful power of emotions is what caused them all:

- They made life foggy and confusing.
- They made me into someone who couldn't really connect to others.
- They made me a false person.

Emotions and anxiety might feel like very real, but they are not.

It was like being in a beautiful lake surrounded by trees and nature and being afraid I wouldn't really enjoy it unless I jumped to the water and be near drowning all the time.

I am no longer afraid to change. I am no longer afraid of letting go of unhealthy effects of emotions. I am certainly no longer afraid to let go of my anxiety.

It is so nice!

6 Responses to “Are you afraid to change?”

  1. momcents Says:
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    Bless you! Sounds like a valuable journey into self discover is beginning for you. I'm on one as well, and it is an eye-opening experience.

  2. Broken Arrow Says:
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    I seek change for the better whenever possible. Smile

    But I am also learning that it's kind of like Edison and the light bulb. What we often find isn't always the answer we hope for, but rather, is a way that we can scratch off our list of things we now know that will not work.

    So, it's progress, even if it's not always "Eureka!"

    ---

    Interesting you bring up anxiety though. My ex-wife has severe anxiety disorder. It was bad enough that it required nightly medication. I'm glad that you appear to be working your way out of it though.

  3. WealthyMe Says:
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    One have to be very careful, I've attended support groups and 4 different therapists.

    One diagnosed me as "bipolar". I am so lucky and blessed that members of the support groups I am member of thought that was not very accurate from what they knew about me. That would have been an ugly ride! I discarded him.

    The supports groups themselves offer theme based support only, I have had to look outside the box to find the solutions that work for me.

    Not to say your ex didn't need medications, maybe that was the right route for her, just a note of caution against embracing labels too easily. Challenge each one of them!

    What is anxiety disorder after all?

  4. Broken Arrow Says:
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    WealthyMe, are you referring to me or Radiance?

    If it's me, my ex had regular intervals of panic attacks, and developed an anxiety disorder for the in-betweens. Anyone who has had a panic attack will know how severe that can be.

    Yes, she has been diagnosed several things, but the panic attacks are undeniable, and the medications have helped ease the symptoms that causes it.

    I've blogged about that in detail in past entries. I don't know if you're interested in wading through it, but that was the short, short version of my ex's anxiety disorder.

  5. WealthyMe Says:
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    Gotit!,

    And sorry for the confusion. I am Radiance....WealthyMe, one and the same.

    ;-)

  6. baselle Says:
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    That's great - I had a similar epiphany after I turned 40. I also stopped hyper-caring about what other people thought of me. Being grateful and genuine can take you a long way.

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